Friday, March 26, 2010

Toby James


For those of you that are know us well you know that are dogs mean alot to us and are a memeber of are family. So i'm just hopeing that if I write about it maybe it will make me feel a little better. Yesturday I lost one of my best friends when we were out running. I watched my puppy have what we think was a heart attack. I watched him try to get up and come running but fail and colapse. I made it back to him for just a couple seconds left of his life. But I didn't care with tears running down my face I picked his limp body up and put him in the truck and rushed to the vet, to hear what I already knew, that Toby was gone. After Lane and I shed more tears for him, Lane took him up on the hill where we run to get burried.
I know some of you probably think I'm crazy but those dogs mean alot to me. Lane has been gone alot due to jobs through out our marraige and without the company of my dogs I don't know what I would have done. they are so friendly and so fun.They go EVERYWHERE with us, they sleep with us, they travel with us, and they eat are food ;). You can do anything to a dog, you can do or say mean things, you can neglect a dog, but when they see you they come running at you full speed with so much love in there heart. They are so loyal and loving.Toby I can't stop thinking about you and picturing you yesterday, my heart feels a little empty and sad today. I miss you and hope your in dog heaven :)
I'm going to miss;
-having to put a guard around myself when you come running in the door, because you are sooo excited to see us!
- hearing you moan after Lanes alarm clock goes off at 6am, and hearing you moan everytime we move in bed!
-watching you fit under all our suitcases in the back seat of the truck floor because you are scared of driving.
-I'm going to miss how excited you got when we would say the words "walk" or "go"
-how chaotic you made everything
-I'm going to miss you following me around in the middle of the night while I take care of Kenadie, then sleeping on my feet in the relcliner
-I'm going to miss how excited you are when we walk into the door, and the continous greeting we get for the next 5 min!
-I'm going to miss having my arm yanked our when I'm walking you becasue all you want to do is go faster and faster!
-the puppy dog eyes you give us when were not sharing out food as often as you think we should :)
-I'm going to miss you being a friend with Tig, he already misses you.
-watching you run around the house and sliding into everyway becasue you are going SOO fast!
-watch you throw a fit when we make you sleep in your own bed!
-you telling us off with a peticular bark, because we won't play with you!!
-I'm gonna miss seeing how excited you get over everything and watching your entire body shake with excitment!
-I'm even gonna miss picking up the inside of the toys that you tear to shreds!
-But most of all I miss your loving loyal heart, and i miss how cuddly you are. I hope you love dog heaven Toby ;) We love and miss you!!

3 comments:

Allen Family said...

Oh Mel, I am so so sorry about Toby. I didn't know. That was such a sweet post...and so sad. He's totally in dog heaven. Lex still talks about his dog "Pup" and still gets emotional, I might add, and now my kids get emotional when we talk about Pup and they've never even met him. We always end the conversation with..."it's ok, we'll all see him and meet him one day in heaven. It'll be so great to play with Pup!" And it'll be great for you to be with Toby again. I'm so sorry for you guys. We love you! love, jes

Joni said...

Hope you feel better.. Im sure he loved you as much as you and Lane loved him..

loriallen said...

I would hurt immensely if we lost Moqui. She has moved right in and become a member of this family. I wouldn't trade a kid for her, but past that, she is pretty darn important to us. I am so sorry for you and your family's loss. Toby was adorable. I will miss him too. That was a very nice tribute to him. I hope it helps you. I love you all and again, so sorry.